Archive for February, 2005


yep. my lips are.. idunno whats wrong with them..i feel like a vampire like those in blade.. where they kill by using their lips.. darn et. i drink water, its not hot.. i even tried chapstick… oh darn… deymmn.



a typical sunday, i was just home today…. things i did… very few schoolwork..
*online the whole day
*finished the game punisher on mame
*text text sa peeps..
*sleep… took a bath in the afternoon…
*tasted my first try of the dimsum chicken feet.. spicy…. hehe.. aint siomai dimsum..
*had delicious lunch and dinner. as usual because we have guest..
*downloading more mame roms
*downloading more anime..
*downloaded yu yu hakusho (spirit detective/ ghostfighter) manga
*read some ah my goddess manga
*writing here… hehe

boring day….
the end. ^-^

PS : approx. less than a bit of3 months

“I Would Rather”

i just copied this from Karen’s forwarded emails. hehe citations.

I Would Rather…
By Mr. Oliver M. Tuazon

LOVE is not a feeling.
If you are young, i would not be surprised if you areshocked with that statement. Every time i say that invarious speaking engagements with young people, i getan almost unanimous vioulent reaction. Until i explainit.
I am writing down my explanation to fulfill a promisei made to my students last february, “the love month.”But shool yearender work and seminars ate up my time.Now that June, “the wedding month,” is just a few daysaway, i guess it is timely to talk again about love.
It is understandable for a young person, especially anadolescent to confuse love with feelings. Adolescenceis a special and complex stage in one’s physical andphysiological development. One starts to getphysiologically atracted with another of the oppositesex. And this brings about feelings of varyingdegrees.
These are feelings that are confused with love. Butonce again, love is not feelings. Love does not residesolely in one’s feelings. Feelings may manifest love,but they are not it.
Where does love reside then? Love is in the will, thatinner faculty we have to choose the good.
It is the ability to love, to commit oneself to thegood of a relationship, for an example, thatdistinguishes us from animals. It is the ability touse our reason and free will that cuts us above thelevel of a beast. Because animals have feeling too.
Hence, our love cannot just be based on feelings.Young people usually say, “feel ko eh”. This mentalityleads to a lot of trouble. What if you don’t “feellike it” anymore? Hence, you see a lot ofrelationships falling apart for very mean reasons.
One day, a group of students in my class, whilewaiting for their laboratory work to progress, werediscussing why some women are called ‘female dogs'(for the sake of refinement, let me just use this).Very easy. A female dog gets into an affair with amale dog on the street anytime she “feels like it.”
A woman may perhaps experience similar feelings inmeeting a man. But if she wants to rise above thelevel of a female dog, she will use her reason andfree will to direct her feelings. She would, for anexample, ask herself, “is he my husband?” The samething holds true for a man who knows that he is morethan a beast.
To those who will wed this June, remember that lovealso entails a commitment. Love being in the willrather than in the feelings is understood more closelywhen it is committed.
Couples commit themselves to stay together for betteror for worse, for richer or poorer, in health or insickness, till death parts their ways. If love isbased on goo d, sugary feelings, it ends when thegoing gets tough.
Couples have to learn how to love not just the virtuesof their spouses, but their defects as well. Thehusband will not be as physically handsome and “macho”as he was and the wife will not be as pretty and slimas she was.
Hence, a spouse who confuses love with feelings willabandon the relationship the moment it gets trying anddifficult. Speak to any couple who have been tested bytime and you will learn a lot of lesons on love andcommitment.
This reminds me of a song i fondly call the “song offidelity”, and the chorus goes:
“I’d rather have bad times with you, than good timeswith someone else…I’d rather be beside you in a storm, than safe andwarm by myself…I’d rather have hard times together, than to have iteasy apart… ”
You may apply those lyrics to your relationship withyour spouse, or if you are a priest or a nun to yourdivine vocation, and why not, even in the fulfillmentof those acts of piety you decided to do as concreteexpressions of your love for God.
When you could sing those words by heart and meanthem, then you know what love is and what love means.I sing them myself when i feel the weight of mycommitments, and i send an SMS message to a friend whostarts to waver in his own commitments with a sample”i’d rather”. Then he understands.

My day..

this is my day and im gonna relate it my way…

what was a morning if im not awake, i dont understand my grammar for Christ’s sake..
so it goes, i woke up… check my cellphone.. text, miscol or anything…. nothing.. anyways, went to the pc… as usual. open the browser,, surfing.. check my stocks… lol.. not the real stocks but neopets stocks.. lols… well, im not into games on it anymore, just the stock market… hehe and morning blewwww quite fast because i played the game Star Ocean of SNES, …… old school, just a plain english patched version.. played for a few hours and holla.. its lunchtime….. and the bee was there… giving me two patties and some rice grains…. mmmm delicious! ….

anyways, how boring this is… well… other things i did..
**watched indirectly the game between pistons and lakers, pistons won! hehe πŸ˜› for lakers… hihi πŸ˜‰
**made a text story about a silver beauty.. haha if you dont know what this is, then its ok… πŸ˜€
from a beautiful maiden, her lonely life… to a frog… to be dinner and to bed wd hugs…
**well.. my lips were constantly bleeding from time to time.. darn dryness. i wonder whats the cure for this.. even chapstick doesnt work… darn
**did some java programming from 1315 till 1730 pm, and i think what i did was soooo simple.. how pathethic of me.. i dont know how to program anymore.. darn. and netbeans ate up my resources so i had to manual set my components… huhuhu darn 256mb memory.. i need more.. 1gb will do! haha
**hmmmm my merienda this afternoon was a jollyburger with jollyfries careoff my grandma.. yey! thanks.. but i was darned by the jollyburger…. i could smell its aroma.. the patty… the sauce.. the soft bread….. as i unwrapped, i licked my lips.. i could feel its flavor through the air… and as i came near for a bite.. an open mouth.. to the fullest…… and even before i could lay a bite…. ouch! the pain.. the agony.. and there it goes again. my lips bleed.. and this time, its a lot.. not just spots,….. darn. the dryness cracked my lips open….. and i had to spend a few minutes wiping blood off it…. but in the end…. nothing was left of the jollybee items…. πŸ™‚
**played SO again, dinner…. then a bit of chat, played mame games… after a few minutes of frustrating , “why da hell wont you work you piece of crap deymn darn to the max aaaaah” sessions. well.. i finished cadillacs and dinasaurs… a game i craved when i was just a little kid and i couldnt finish it before because i only have limited tokens.. thanks to mame, i have finished it using unlimited tokens! haha lang kwenta no match! haha token power…. but tekken tag wont work… booohooo….

thats all i think… now ends my tale… and my journal entry is complete.. i need a rest, so tired from my head to feet…

got a disease…

you got it right. i got one…. its the one called lazyness, now dont go saying “begone from my sight you unclean one… you might have one too…. ”
i cant help it, im addicted to it.. it seems like im attracted to it day by day… but i think there is a cure for it, just a few dosage of pressure and it seems that, i feel all well and back to normal.. but after a few hours, the effect is gone.. i guess its just a temporary cure. so far, identified symtoms (is this the spelling? ) are … idling away doing nothing, maniana habit, planning but not doing what is planned .not even doing anything at all, another is like, doing some other things not related to what should be done and thus as time pass by, pressure would be needed .. or else, fatal results could be obtained. yet, even if fatal results has been felt, lazyness doesnt care.. it does not feel a thing and would go on forever, just like the expression, once you pop you cant stop… lazyness is hard to stop… but its not impossible…. impossible is nothing… anything is possible… a word of caution, lazyness does give you an easy life, no worries, no troubles, no pressure for a while, but sooner of later, people stricken with lazyness will realize…. they will reach a point where, they end up being nothing… its just a matter of choice, be lazy or be lazy’s enemy, be responsible

just a friendly reminder from someone stricken will lazyness….

– Lazy bastard

My first post…

my first post.. yey…
my blog days are back again. and its time to post post post…. all topics.. from useless crap, rants, even school stuff.. and … anything that comes into my mind. hehe

i welcome myself… and i look stupid doing that…. hehe

that’s all.. πŸ˜€


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